The Couch and the Bed

I have not written in so long and I see that Word Press has some changes. I don’t like some of them. For example, I used to be able to ‘follow’ someone simply by hitting a button. Now if someone is following me, I having a problem of following them back after I read their blogs. If anyone can help, please tell me how to follow someone….

Where have I been?  On the couch and the bed since November. I have also been to so many doggone doctors. So many tests, blood and scans and ultrasounds. Why? Because I lost so much weight in a short amount of time. (forty pounds).  Usually I would be dancing a jig if I had lost that much weight and was Trying to. However, I was Not trying to.

I was on so many antibiotics  last summer and fall and they did a doozy on my poor body. Then I had troubles with my teeth (a partial and dentures) and still do have troubles with them.  Gastro problems were the worst and I saw two gastro docs and had so many tests done I can’t even count them all. I had much pain from not eating enough. (still don’t) but I am trying to …..My biggest complaint was constant nausea and guess what?

No medical cause found. So what does that mean? Hello Anxiety you pain in the butt..Kind of hard for me even now to admit it or even think about it. My mind is Making Me Sick?  Nah, couldn’t be. Well there doesn’t seem to be anything else.

Why did I stop writing?

Because so many of you have joyous blogs, filled with days of happiness and minimal struggle, or gorgeous art or photography and I didn’t want to seem like a Big Whiner although I was. On top of that I cried A Lot Every Day. Not conducive to writing.

However, I remembered that I have an entire family  of people in the blog sphere that I could have leaned on for support who’s the dummy here? Me!

Kudos to all who write even when their days are dark and gloomy and filled with ill health. I couldn’t do it. I felt like I was crazy. I still do.

I am now seeing a Shrink which has provided me with new meds that seem to be working, helping me to not be sick and I can only say that I hope and pray it lasts. Oh to be nausea free!  It’s unbelievable and glorious!